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Career and work make up a significant part of our lives. Over a lifetime, the average person spends 13 years—roughly 90,000 hours—at work((The average person spends 90,000 hours working over their lifetime, approximately 13 years if working 40 hours/week from age 20-65. Source: Dreams.co.uk https://www.dreams.co.uk/sleep-matters-club/your-life-in-numbers-infographic)). To put this in perspective: we spend 26 years sleeping((26 years or 227,916 hours sleeping, plus another 7 years trying to fall asleep - about one-third of our entire lives. Source: Dreams.co.uk https://www.dreams.co.uk/sleep-matters-club/your-life-in-numbers-infographic)), 19 years in marriage (median duration)((The median duration of marriages in the U.S. has remained at 19 years since 2010. Source: BGSU https://www.bgsu.edu/ncfmr/resources/data/family-profiles/payne-median-duration-marriages-fp-20-16.html)), and only 4 years with friends and family((People spend approximately 4 years with friends and family over their lifetime. Source: Chris Bailey https://chrisbailey.com/our-life-span-is-only-17-5-years/)). When you subtract sleep and work from our lives, we're left with merely 17.5 years of truly discretionary time((After subtracting obligatory tasks like sleep and work, we're left with as few as 17.5 years of truly discretionary time in our entire lives. Source: Chris Bailey https://chrisbailey.com/our-life-span-is-only-17-5-years/)). Work isn't just a way to pay bills; it's one of the defining pillars of human existence.

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Yet the stark reality is that many people, if not a silent majority, are dissatisfied with their chosen vocation. Recent surveys reveal that only 30% of workers are satisfied with their pay((Only 30% of workers say they are extremely or very satisfied with how much they're paid, with 80% citing pay hasn't kept up with cost of living increases. Source: Pew Research Center 2024 https://www.pewresearch.org/social-trends/2024/12/10/job-satisfaction/)), just 26% feel satisfied with promotion opportunities ((About a quarter are highly satisfied with their opportunities for promotion at work, while 36% cite lack of growth opportunities as a source of job dissatisfaction. Source: Pew Research Center 2024 https://www.pewresearch.org/social-trends/2024/12/10/job-satisfaction/)), and a staggering 71% want to change bosses((For the seventh annual survey in a row, a shocking 71% of U.S. staffers said they want to change bosses, with leadership and recognition being major factors in job dissatisfaction. Source: Conference Board 2024 https://www.conference-board.org/press/job-satisfaction-2024)). When we spend such a significant portion of our finite lives working, this dissatisfaction becomes an existential crisis.

This is an excerpt from _The Prophet_ by Kahlil Gibran (1923), which is in the public domain. You can read the [complete book here](/prophet.pdf). I hope it helps you along your journey and provides some additional new perspectives.

Thank you to Gregg Braden for turning me onto Kahlil Gibran.

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> Work is Love Made Visible

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Then a ploughman said, Speak to us of Work.

     And he answered, saying:


You work that you may keep pace with the earth and the soul of the earth.
For to be idle is to become a stranger unto the seasons,
and to step out of life's procession,
that marches in majesty and proud submission towards the infinite.


When you work you are a flute
through whose heart the whispering of the hours turns to music.
Which of you would be a reed, dumb and silent,
when all else sings together in unison?


Always you have been told that work is a curse and labour a misfortune.
But I say to you that when you work
you fulfil a part of earth's furthest dream,
assigned to you when that dream was born,

And in keeping yourself with labour you are in truth loving life,
And to love life through labour is to be intimate with life's inmost secret.


But if you in your pain call birth an affliction
and the support of the flesh a curse written upon your brow,
then I answer that naught but the sweat of your brow
shall wash away that which is written.


You have been told also life is darkness,
and in your weariness you echo what was said by the weary.

And I say that life is indeed darkness save when there is urge,
     And all urge is blind save when there is knowledge,
     And all knowledge is vain save when there is work,
     And all work is empty save when there is love;


And when you work with love
you bind yourself to yourself, and to one another, and to God.


And what is it to work with love?

     It is to weave the cloth with threads drawn from your heart,
     even as if your beloved were to wear that cloth.

     It is to build a house with affection,
     even as if your beloved were to dwell in that house.

     It is to sow seeds with tenderness and reap the harvest with joy,
     even as if your beloved were to eat the fruit.

     It is to charge all things you fashion with a breath of your own spirit,
     And to know that all the blessed dead are standing about you and watching.



Work is love made visible.



And if you cannot work with love but only with distaste,
it is better that you should leave your work
and sit at the gate of the temple
and take alms of those who work with joy.

For if you bake bread with indifference,
     you bake a bitter bread that feeds but half man's hunger.
And if you grudge the crushing of the grapes,
     your grudge distils a poison in the wine.
And if you sing though as angels, and love not the singing,
     you muffle man's ears to the voices of the day and the voices of the night.


~Kahlil Gibran, 1923
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Work is Love Made Visible


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> I can't get no satisfaction
> — The Rolling Stones, 1965

We're uniquely obsessed with progress. No other species seems so relentlessly dissatisfied. Horses and carriages? Old. Cassette tapes? Bulky. Landlines? Not mobile enough. We've been this way since we first chipped flint into blades, tamed fire despite its danger, painted stories on cave walls while survival itself hung in the balance.

https://www.youtube.com/embed/nrIPxlFzDi0

Are we alone in this compulsion? Unlikely. Across the cosmos, across deep time, surely others have walked this path. The universe is too vast, too old, for us to be unique.

Yet look at what our progress has wrought. We have the richest economy in human history((Global GDP reached $100 trillion in 2022, yet wealth inequality has reached unprecedented levels - the 10 richest countries have per-capita purchasing power of $118,000 while the 10 poorest have just $1,600. Source: IMF https://gfmag.com/data/richest-countries-in-the-world/)), but record depression((5.7% of adults globally suffer from depression, with over 1 billion people living with mental health disorders - a 25% increase since COVID-19. Source: WHO https://www.who.int/news-room/fact-sheets/detail/depression)) and homelessness((In the U.S. alone, 771,480 people experienced homelessness in January 2024 - the highest number since data collection began, an 18% increase from 2023. Source: HUD https://www.huduser.gov/portal/sites/default/files/pdf/2024-AHAR-Part-1.pdf)). Modern medicine saves millions from ancient killers, while obesity((40.3% of U.S. adults have obesity in 2024; obesity causes 3.7 million deaths annually from chronic diseases worldwide. Sources: CDC https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/products/databriefs/db508.htm and WHO https://www.who.int/news-room/fact-sheets/detail/obesity-and-overweight)), inflammation, and heart disease run rampant. The internet connects eight billion humans, yet loneliness reaches epidemic proportions((24% of people globally experience regular loneliness; 30% of U.S. adults feel lonely at least weekly, with young adults hit hardest at 79%. Sources: WHO https://www.who.int/teams/social-determinants-of-health/demographic-change-and-healthy-ageing/social-isolation-and-loneliness and APA https://www.psychiatry.org/news-room/news-releases/new-apa-poll-one-in-three-americans-feels-lonely-e)). Real community feels like a relic.

These aren't just unfortunate side effects or growing pains. They reveal a pattern: when we build without asking why, when we innovate just to innovate or profit just to profit, our tools amplify problems rather than solve them. We've mastered how to build but forgotten to ask what's worth building.

This forgetting points to something fundamental we've lost: consciousness. From the Latin "conscientia," meaning "knowing with," consciousness implies self-awareness, wisdom, connection. Our ability to produce technology has far outpaced this deeper knowing.

Consider our relationship with Earth. We have one planet, perfectly positioned in the cosmos, neither too hot nor too cold for life to flourish. A gossamer-thin ozone layer protects us from radiation while trapping just enough heat. We're blessed with oxygen, water, and rainforests that form a living system of staggering complexity and fragility.

If honey bees vanished tomorrow, three-quarters of our food crops would lose their pollinators((75% of major food crops depend on pollinators. Of the 100 crops that provide 90% of the world's food, 71 are pollinated by bees. Colony losses reached 62% in 2024-2025, the worst ever recorded. Sources: UN FAO https://www.fao.org/newsroom/detail/Declining-bee-populations-pose-threat-to-global-food-security-and-nutrition/en and Penn State https://www.psu.edu/impact/story/protecting-pollinators/)). No more apples, almonds, or avocados. No coffee or chocolate. We'd survive on wheat and rice, but the diverse, nutritious foods that make life worth living would vanish. Everything hangs by such delicate threads.

Yet we poison the air, contaminate the water, bury our waste, and excavate caverns for nuclear refuse((Air pollution causes 8.1 million deaths annually, the second leading risk factor for death globally. 2.2 billion people lack access to safe drinking water, with 44% of wastewater returning untreated to the environment. Nuclear waste sites like Hanford contain 56 million gallons of radioactive material, costing over $100 billion to clean. Sources: State of Global Air 2024 https://www.stateofglobalair.org/resources/report/state-global-air-report-2024 and UNICEF https://www.unicef.org/press-releases/air-pollution-accounted-81-million-deaths-globally-2021-becoming-second-leading-risk)). We treat our only home like it's disposable.

Profit today, let tomorrow's children clean up the mess. But if each generation thinks this way, eventually there's no tomorrow left. We approach our own Rubicon, a point of no return where the damage becomes irreversible. Not just for us, but for every species that shares this planet.

The paradoxes are starkest in our digital lives. Social media promised connection; it delivered isolation. We have thousands of "friends" but no one to call in crisis. We doom scroll for hours, losing three days each month to our screens((31% of American adults doom scroll regularly, with rates reaching 51% among Gen Z. The average person spends 6 hours daily consuming media and believes they lose 3 days monthly to scrolling. Source: 2024 Talker Research https://www.livenowfox.com/news/talker-research-media-consumption-report-2024)). Meta's latest offering, Vibes, floods feeds with AI-generated video slop designed purely to hook attention and serve ads((Meta launched Vibes on September 25, 2025, a feed of entirely AI-generated videos. Users responded to Zuckerberg's announcement with "gang nobody wants this" and "Bro's posting ai slop on his own app." Source: Meta https://about.fb.com/news/2025/09/introducing-vibes-ai-videos/)).

<blockquote class="twitter-tweet"><p lang="en" dir="ltr">gang nobody wants this</p>&mdash; s (@sdw) <a href="https://twitter.com/sdw/status/1971325606005702798">September 25, 2025</a></blockquote>

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All this engineered addiction serves one purpose: consumption.

https://www.youtube.com/embed/PgU71nWCNeY

> "We buy things we don't need with money we don't have to impress people we don't like."
> — Fight Club

Echo chambers amplify division. Outrage travels faster than understanding.

We carry all human knowledge in our pockets, yet drown in misinformation. Conspiracy theories spread six times faster than truth. Deepfakes blur reality. Algorithms amplify extremism over wisdom. The information age has become the confusion age.

Artificial intelligence is the ultimate expression of this disconnect. We rush to automate everything, supposedly to create abundance, but really just to cut costs and maximize profits. Yet what's the endgame? When everyone uses AI, competitive advantage evaporates. Margins collapse to the cost of electricity and API fees. We're racing to the bottom, automating ourselves into irrelevance.

Helena Blavatsky warned in the 19th century of "soulless" beings, entities that mimic intelligence without consciousness. Now we hand healthcare, justice, and creativity to machines that don't know what any of it means.

And for what? This relentless efficiency doesn't create the abundance we're promised. Instead we get social credit scores that turn citizens into prisoners. Autonomous drones that make killing as easy as clicking a mouse. Deepfakes that obliterate any notion of truth. AI slop flooding every feed, every platform, optimizing for engagement while draining all meaning from human expression. Black Mirror looks quaint compared to what's already here. The dystopia isn't coming. We're building it, one algorithm at a time.

The economic paradoxes are equally stark. California's economy alone would rank 5th globally, yet tent cities sprawl beneath Silicon Valley offices where twenty-somethings make $300k. New York generates more wealth than entire nations while families sleep in subway stations. We can 3D print houses in days but "can't afford" to shelter humans. Apps deliver sushi in 15 minutes to those who pay $3000/month for studios, while food banks run empty miles away.

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This isn't just market failure. It's what happens when central banks print trillions, inflating assets for those who own them while wages stagnate for everyone else. As Richard Werner documented in [Princes of the Yen](https://www.amazon.com/Princes-Yen-Central-Bankers-Transformations/dp/0765610493), credit creation concentrates wealth by design, not accident. Technology amplifies these distortions. AI won't fix what consciousness hasn't addressed: we have all the tools to solve homelessness, hunger, and basic human needs. We choose not to. We'd rather optimize ad clicks than optimize human flourishing.

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  <figcaption>The American Dream priced out - housing costs soar while incomes stagnate</figcaption>
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Technology doesn't solve inequality; it amplifies it. Like money revealing character rather than changing it, technology magnifies what's already there. How we build anything reveals how we build everything. Those with capital use AI to generate more wealth. Those without fall further behind. Educational technology widens the gap between connected and disconnected students. The gig economy delivers precarity disguised as flexibility. The pattern is consistent: our tools mirror our values, and our values prioritize extraction over care.

So where does it all go?

Technology and consciousness are parallel tracks of human evolution. The relationship between them determines our fate. When innovation exceeds wisdom, we get dystopia. Nuclear energy becomes nuclear weapons. Surveillance becomes oppression. Algorithms become manipulation.

When technology leads and consciousness lags, we get Orwell's 1984 as reality. China's social credit system scores humanity rather than serves it. Facial recognition turns public spaces into open-air prisons. Predictive policing criminalizes poverty. Digital currencies could become tools for total economic control. The technocratic dream of efficiency becomes a nightmare of dehumanization.

https://www.youtube.com/embed/a9sn4_Dpa00

This is the path of "might makes right," where those who control the technology control everyone else. Tech billionaires speak of humanity as a problem to be solved rather than a miracle to be cherished. Universal basic income proposals sound benevolent but could become digital breadlines, keeping the masses barely sustained while a technological elite accumulates unimaginable power.

AI systems already make decisions about human lives: who gets hired, who gets loans, who gets released from prison. These systems have no genuine understanding of what it means to be human.

When technology becomes the answer to everything, it devolves into pure materialism. Soulless, mechanical, dead. Everything optimized but nothing has meaning. Infinite entertainment but no joy. Constantly connected but never truly together. We can simulate any experience but lose touch with reality itself.

But there's another path, one we keep avoiding because it requires something harder than building machines: growing up.

The answer doesn't lie in AGI or ASI or whatever acronym comes next. We keep hoping the next technological leap will magically solve problems that aren't technological at their core. Loneliness isn't a software bug. Inequality isn't a hardware limitation. Environmental collapse isn't an optimization problem.

What we need isn't more processing power but more compassion. Not faster algorithms but deeper wisdom. Not virtual connections but real community. We need to remember what every indigenous culture knew: harming the Earth harms ourselves. We are not separate from nature, we are nature. The bees dying are us dying. The oceans acidifying are our blood turning poison.

This isn't mysticism. It's the most practical truth there is. Every living system is interconnected. Damage one part, damage the whole. Yet we treat Earth like a platform to be exploited rather than a living system we're part of. We treat each other as competitors rather than collaborators in survival.

The real evolution we need isn't technological but spiritual. Not in some religious sense, but in recognizing our fundamental interconnection. When you truly understand that your wellbeing depends on everyone else's wellbeing, you stop hoarding and start sharing. When you grasp that Earth's health is your health, you stop poisoning and start healing.

This shift in consciousness could transform technology from a weapon into a gift. Imagine AI serving genuine human needs rather than manufactured desires. Automation creating leisure rather than unemployment. Networks building understanding rather than division. We have all the tools needed to create something approaching heaven on Earth. What we lack is the maturity to use them.

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But maturity can't be downloaded or coded. It must be earned through facing hard truths: that our current path leads to extinction. That infinite growth on a finite planet is suicide. That no amount of technology will save us if we don't save ourselves first.

The choice is stark. Continue our adolescent fantasy that more technology equals more happiness, and watch everything collapse. Or grow up. Develop the consciousness to match our capabilities. Learn to love the world and each other before it's too late.

Time is running out. Climate tipping points approach. AI systems grow beyond our control. Social fabric tears. The question isn't whether technology will advance. It will. The question is whether we'll advance with it, or let it drag us into a soulless future where everything is optimized except what matters: love, meaning, connection, life itself.

The ultimate purpose of technology will be whatever we choose, or whatever we allow to be chosen for us. But first, we need to become conscious enough to choose wisely.

The alternative is extinction. A final lesson for a species that could build anything except wisdom.

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Soulless Technology

How Build a Solar Backup System for Under $5,000

How to Build a Solar Backup System for Under $5,000


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This is a story that has resonated with many over the years, myself included. It invites us to reflect on our relationship with time, success, and contentment. In a world that often emphasizes constant growth and achievement, this tale reminds us of the value in appreciating the present moment and finding joy in life's simple pleasures.

Importantly, the story doesn't suggest that ambition or progress is inherently negative. Rather, it encourages us to maintain perspective as we pursue our goals. It's about striking a balance – achieving and growing while not losing sight of what truly matters in life and not losing the forest for the trees.

> Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, and today is a gift––that is why it is called the present.

---

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A wealthy businessman was vacationing in a small coastal village. As he walked along the pier, he noticed a small fishing boat docking. Inside was a lone fisherman with several large fish.

Impressed, the businessman asked, "How long did it take you to catch those?"

"Not long," the fisherman replied with a smile.

"Why don't you stay out longer and catch more?" the businessman inquired.

The fisherman explained, "This is enough to support my family's needs."

Curious, the businessman asked, "But what do you do with the rest of your time?"

"I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take naps with my wife, and in the evenings, I stroll into the village to drink wine and play music with my friends. I have a full and busy life," the fisherman answered contentedly.

The businessman scoffed. "I have a business degree and could help you. You should fish for longer hours. With the extra money, you could buy a bigger boat. With the proceeds from the bigger boat, you could then buy several boats. Eventually, you would have a fleet of fishing boats."

He continued enthusiastically, "Instead of selling your catch to a middleman, you would sell directly to the processor and later open your own cannery. You would control the product, processing, and distribution. You'd need to move from this village to the city, and eventually to a big financial center to run your expanding enterprise."

The fisherman asked, "But how long will this all take?"

"15-20 years," replied the businessman.

"And then what?" the fisherman pressed.

The businessman laughed. "That's the best part. When the time is right, you would sell your company and become very rich. You would make millions!"

"Millions?" asked the fisherman. "Then what?"

The businessman said, "Then you would retire. You could move to a small coastal village where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take naps with your wife, and spend your evenings drinking wine and playing music with your friends."

The fisherman smiled at the businessman and said, "Isn't that what I'm doing right now?"
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The Fisherman and the Businessman: A Parable on Present Living

The Fisherman and the Businessman


Eric Weinstein and Terrence Howard recently appeared on the Joe Rogan Experience podcast, discussing various topics including the flower of life, platonic solids, and the academic peer review process.

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https://www.youtube.com/embed/nrOaFxNex7U

During the conversation, Eric shared a video from his friend, Stanley Jordan, who has mapped musical tones to the periodic table of elements.

https://www.youtube.com/embed/GnMEOD4zZDc

Inspired by this innovative approach, I created a web-based version of this concept. The idea is to assign musical frequencies to elements based on their ionization energies. Here's how it works:

1. Normalization of Ionization Energy:

   $$
   E_{norm} = \frac{E_i - E_{min}}{E_{max} - E_{min}}
   $$

   Where $E_i$ is the ionization energy of an element, $E_{min}$ and $E_{max}$ are the minimum and maximum ionization energies.

2. Frequency Mapping:

   $$
   f = f_{low} + E_{norm} \cdot (f_{high} - f_{low})
   $$

   Where $f_{low}$ and $f_{high}$ are the lower and upper frequency bounds.

3. Quantization:

   $$
   semitones = round(12 \cdot \log_2(\frac{f}{440})) + chromatic + 12 \cdot octave
   $$

   $$
   f_{quantized} = 440 \cdot 2^{\frac{semitones}{12}}
   $$

In simple terms, quantization adjusts the calculated frequency to the nearest musical note.

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If you're interested, you can explore the interactive version at [gavinmai.com/periodic-melodies](https://www.gavinmai.com/periodic-melodies).

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Exploring Periodic Melodies: Music Meets Chemistry

Periodic Melodies


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Many years ago when I was in my teens, I faced excruciating anxiety about the future. Not knowing who I was, what to do, what the purpose of life was. Now that I am older, I still face anxiety at times, but have realized that this is natural and human. The important thing is to not let fear dictate your actions and move forward in spite of your fears.

At the time, I crossed paths with Andres Amador((https://bio.site/andresamadorarts)) via email and he gave some excellent advice that I wanted to re-share in the hopes that it helps you, dear friend.

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> Question: What do I do with my life?

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The short answer is that you need to be true to yourself.

The problem, especially for someone so young, is that the figuring out of who we are is a lifelong journey. Honestly, its only been recently, in the past 5 years or less perhaps, that I have able to stand in the solidity of who I feel myself to be (and I'm 42!). I feel that when someone leaves high school they should have to leave the country for a year minimum of service/exploration. We can't know who we are when we only have our own context to gauge ourselves from. Experiences are crucial to learning who we are, to learning our preferences and our tendencies, our inclinations, our traps.

We place such a burden on our youth to figure out their lives when they have not yet truly lived. It leads to a stress in the moment and at worst to a defining and narrowing of ourselves that can have lifelong impact- at its most limiting when we define our options based on perceived financial reward and go in a direction that is truly unsatisfying. The positive is that we are always in control of who we express ourselves as- never forget that. It allows one to have a more relaxed approach to seemingly heavy decisions- there is always the potential to shift course (although it could be easier to shift earlier than later...).

I am expecting my first child in about 2 months. So I might look at this question as one directed towards that person in your position. How would I advise my own child, someone I have an intimately connected desire to 'succeed' (by which I mean 'find a path of sustainable happiness'), someone for whom I cannot have a dispassionate, quixotic response? I think I would be starting much earlier in life to inculcate the awareness of their internal pullings, to recognize and appreciate the movement of their heart. From that place, were they to choose to go directly to college, or to an apprenticeship, or to travel, or to work, I would trust that they were acting according to the internal guidance system that is uniquely theirs and that will always move them towards greater expansion of their being.

It is an abstract concept, but here is my actual answer to all questions that arise in our lives: 'what has my light shining brighter?' Whether its about where to live or what to eat or who to associate with or what work to do, this question is appropriate as a gauge to the aspect of our experience that has a far deeper impact on us than any other (such as financial, rationality, etc). Here's a way to engage the question- when contemplating the options, which one has your body feeling most easeful, which has your heart running more quickly, which has you feeling scared in a nervous excited way? In contrast, which has you feeling tense, sapped of energy, or anxious?

Life is not 'supposed' to 'look' any particular 'way'. Each of us is on our own journey of realizing our own unique potential. There is no roadmap for any of us, and that is the scary part- stepping off the trail and into the wilderness to chart our own path. There is no guarantee. Of course, there is no guarantee in life for anything at all. Doing something for the security it offers is perhaps the worst mistake we can make for not only are we giving up our more expanded potential, but we may not arrive at what we are aiming for, which makes the effort even less worthwhile. This is not to say that efforting towards something is not worthwhile- but that efforting without that internal motivation is not worthwhile. Only you can feel this, only you can understand this (even when you can't actually, understand it). You can't look to others for the cues to what it should be and thats where it can be hard at your age with parental and later societal pressures to 'be something'.

Follow your heart the best you can from wherever you find yourself. Life is a continuous unfolding, with our understanding of ourself in constant evolution, which will have you coming to different conclusions at different times in the journey. The only constant is the question I posed- 'what has your light shining brightest?' Follow that and no matter what, you will feel happiest about the journey, even as 'mistakes' are made (which is a necessary part of living). And remember- it is never too late to redefine ourselves and to shift course.

I wish you well on your journey, its an amazing and exciting one even as its scary.

Blessings
~Andres
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Essays & notes

Work is Love Made Visible

Soulless Technology

How to Build a Solar Backup System for Under $5,000

The Fisherman and the Businessman

Periodic Melodies

advice for young adults

Money: The Hidden Backbone of Civilization

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